Lately, I have focused on the factors within my control that contribute to my depression. Doing so, I’m beginning to see why much of my self-care in the past has ultimately been surface level. I take care of my immediate needs, but my long-term needs are often overlooked.
Looking for a creative outlet? Get crafty! Stressed out about work? Go for a walk or work in the yard for a break. Desperately seeking some peace and quiet? Ask Grandma to take The Bean for a few hours!
I found that, while addressing these needs in the moment was important, this was not improving my base level happiness vs depression. Through a great deal of introspection, I realized that I have felt disconnected for years. Not just the recent disconnect from family and friends due to the pandemic, but something deeper. I felt disconnected from myself.
In my next two posts, I’ll get into each of these identities further. It’s definitely more than a single post can handle!